Sometimes God puts certain people in your life to show you how you’re screwing up and how to fix it. Sometimes, these guardian angels are disguised as people who need YOUR help. This post is about one such man. Mood music: [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wyb7dt9nz_g&fs=1&hl=en_US] In 12-Step programs anonymity is a big deal, especially in OA, because there’s …
I’m back from a very powerful, emotionally draining weekend. It was absolutely wonderful. I came closest as I ever have to crying a few times. More on that later. For now, here’s the talk I gave Saturday morning. I’ve embedded no links and all typos and rough edges are included. I’m sure you’ll give me …
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I huge weight is off my shoulders. I’ve gone from talking about the changes that’ll help me preserve my sobriety and abstinence to doing what I said I’d do. Mood music: Pearl Jam covering Mother Love Bone’s “Crown of Thorns” I told my sponsor that hitting the reset button means I have to replace her. …
I mentioned a few posts ago that I’ve hit a wall in my recovery program. I shared about it at yesterday’s OA meeting, and as the day progressed, I realized what I need to do to stay sober and abstinent. MOOD MUSIC: “GRACE” BY U2. CLICK HERE TO LET IT PLAY. I should point out …
I used to have this dumb, ego-driven idea that I was better than people who did things for work that were “beneath me.” Here’s how I learned to stop being stupid. Mood music: [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HG1FlsgLQQY&fs=1&hl=en_US] The lesson came from an obvious place that wasn’t so obvious once upon a time: God. I expected a lightening flash …
My old friend Clarence liked the post I wrote about him awhile back and jokingly asked me to write another one. OK, buddy, but you’re not gonna like this one. Mood music: [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=72rWAe0pUdQ&fs=1&hl=en_US] Note: I’m keeping your true identity out of this, so your anonymity is preserved. I meant everything I said in that post. …
I’ve had love on my mind this week. Some of that comes from the Cursillo weekend I just experienced. Some of it might be that I’ve been letting myself love other people in ways I never thought I could. That doesn’t make people any easier to love. Truth is, some of the people I love …
I’ve gone from sponsoring four people in my OA 12-Step program to two, and one of them only e-mails once in awhile. I’m perfectly fine with that. Mood music: [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l9jX1KAKp78&fs=1&hl=en_US] I was a reluctant sponsor in the first place. I can barely take care of myself, after all. Some days, it takes every ounce of …
Some readers suggest my Faith and love of heavy metal music are an odd combination. Some of the rock crowd think my religious beliefs are at odds with the spirit of metal culture. Some of my church friends think metal is the devil’s music. You’re both wrong. Mood music: http://youtu.be/466VHt8KldM You’ve heard my story. Faith …
This morning I wrote about the one-two punch I got yesterday from the good and evil sides of OCD. Right now I’m experiencing a hangover as a result. Mood music: [youtube=http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Iho1V–8G4&fs=1&hl=en_US] This hangover has nothing to do with binging or drinking. I did neither, though I did think seriously about it. I lingered in the …
